new years day and the following were busy days of traveling and excitement (no reason not to spend time with God, but a fairly good one not to exercise my brains out). just a few moments ago i caught up with my old testament reading: genesis 1-6 and psalm 1-3. it was... refreshing. the last few days as i've thought about my guilt of not spending my devoted time, i had realized that months have passed since i've sat down with my Bible for more than a few minutes at a time. i feel relieved and refocused, remembering why i decided to make this year different.
yesterday i practically read all of francis chan's crazy love, and it was incredible. so challenging, so rough, so great. i am moved. well, actually - right now i am at a stand still, because i'm not sure how God is calling me to move from reading that book. so many big ideas and key concepts that i know to be true, but am not daily acting upon is hard to consume. from reading the book yesterday, i've been able to open up my prayer life a lot more on a momentary basis - like i used to be when i was counseling at barakel. i'm seeing God speak directly to me - through the book, through the message today, through His goodness, grace, and calling upon my life. i'm ready to run - just not sure where to go.
speaking about running, that's what i'm about to do. it's a mere 21 degrees out, but sunny enough that i can't turn down the opportunity when i know i should be out there.
the dieting is going alright so far - new years day was a few hundred more calories that i wanted, but i was consciously making an effort to consider what i was eating. yesterday i started the day well, but as shane's mom says - the rule for driving across the country is that all dieting rules are out; it's too hard to find healthy choices and who wants to when they're crammed in a car all day. at first i hesitated at this approach, but when i felt the urge to snack 5 hours in, i decided that i should just live it up while i can. today has proven to be much better - about 850 calories so far, feeling good.
alright - here's the part i don't want to talk about, the facts. about a month and a half ago, i weighed 145, and today i'm at 153. i'm not proud - i'd like to blame it on christmas, but it's more about my laziness (and preparation for this diet as i knew i was giving up a lot). so my goal is 140 by the end of march. here's to that. and here's to my freeeeezing cold run that i'm heading out for.